Welcome to NAFEX! As someone who has only been licensed for a year, I completely understand where you're coming from. I started going flying with a very accomplished falconer when I was 12, and I've had the bug ever since. But it took me 17 years to finally get to a place in my life where falconry was possible and pheasable with fairness to myself and the bird. You're definitely in the right place! There are some extremely knowledgeable people in this community and this is a great channel to learn from. I also flew a kestrel as my first bird last season. She was a blast.